17 December 2015

kembara

Bismillah
Langkah dimulakan
Mencari nilai
Memberi erti
Menggapai impian


Semoga ku ketemu apa cuba di cari. InsyaAllah
Mohon doakan perjalanan ini.


4 December 2015

Mac and cheese

Ada satu spesis makanan yang biasanya aku masak time terover lapar selepas seharian lupa makan bila tenggelam dalam dunia buku dan malas nak keluar cari bahan.

It is one of my ultimate comfort food.



Sebab ramai mintak resepi, ni saja kakak share.
Macaroni cheese atau short form dia orang panggil mac n cheese.

Mac n cheese yang kakak buat biasa ada dua version. Satu plain version satu lagi yang ada "isi"
So ni kakak share yang version semi plain. 😊😊

Bahan-bahan:
2-3 cawan macaroni
1/2 ketul butter
2 cawan tepung
2 cawan susu (kalau tak ada kakak guna je susu cair)
1-2 cawan air
1 mangkuk cendawan butang
1 cawan cheese (kakak campur cheddar n mozzarella)
Sebijik capsicum potong dadu ( warna apa pon boleh)
Garam, cili flakes, lada sulah/black pepper dan mix herb untuk seasoning.

Cara-cara
Rebus macaroni macam rebus spaghetti tu, jgn lupa ltk garam dan minyak. Cuma jangan terlalu lembik sebab akan masak lagi sekali. Mat salleh kata Al dante la. 😉

Ambik periuk lagi satu, cairkan butter dengan api perlahan. Dah cair tu masukkan tepung dan gaul sampai rata dan tepung tu masak sikit, baru masuk susu sedikit demi sedikit, yang pasti tangan tu kene gigih mengacau. 

Kemudian kakak masuk air sikit dulu then letak cendawan capsicum dan cheese. Pekat sangat kakak akan tambah air lagi, banyak mane tu tgk pada macaroni. Agak-agak bila gaul macaroni tu dia akan jadi mcm mee goreng yang basah sikit2 tu. 😇( maaf x tau nak compare dengan ape.)
Then season ikut cita rasa. Cili flakes tu kakak suka lebih sikit. Buat hilang muak dan mulut melayu jadi yang tetap suka pedas.

Masukkan macaroni then gaul atas api sekejap. Selepas tu tuang macaroni dalam bekas casserole atau bekas yang sesuai untuk masuk oven. Nak bakar tu biasa kakak tabur sikit lagi cheese kat atas tu, aritu ada lebih parmesan cheese dalam peti, akak guna la, tak ada pun tak apa, cheddar or mozzarella pun okay jugak.

Then bakar dalam 20-25 minute, suhu dalam 250- 300 la kot. Depends pada oven jugak. Kakak biasa dalam microwave tu je. Guna function micro- convection.


Selamat mencuba dan menggemukkan didi. 😈😈

1 December 2015

December = DREAM

Welcome December

The year of 2015 almost come to it end.

This month theme is about dream.
Soal cita-cita dan impian dan juga mimpi.

I will never know until when I am going to have this life.
Some people want me to be the way they wish me to be.
But I can't because that's not me, that would never be me.
This is me, and this way I want to be to achieve my dream.

Tak salah memasang impian yang besar sebab peluang hidup ni hanya sekali.  Dan aku layak untuk mengejar impian aku sendiri.
Tapi aku tahu aku perlu work very hard.

InsyaAllah bulan ni, aku akan mulakan untuk lunas salah satu my childhood dream.

And I want to make this statement
On my way to have and to achieve these dreams
I am so lucky to a very supportive family and friends
To all of you, I want to say thank you for accepting me the way I am.



Because I believe life is a gift

Life,  it's something we will all complete
When it will end none of us know
So our worries about it render obsolete
But these worries in our head continue to flow

My message to me
and For all who are reading this
Our life is a gift
All shiny and glistening
and sometimes it is dark and gloomy

still live every day as though it is your last
With blood in your veins,  your heart pumping fast
Grab every second, yes this one right here
None one that just past or one arriving next year
Our time is ticking,  vanishing as We wait
But something will arise,  surely it's Our fate
The answer to that,  sadly is no
So get on with it, look forward, and go

30 November 2015

Book review: The other side of the coin

This is my second time buying this book. 

First I bought 2 books, one for me and another 1 as a gift to my friend. But in the middle of reading the book, my other friend need a book to read while waiting  for something,  so I gave mine to her. After a few months, yesterday I bought it again to finish it.

2 writers published in one book, I can't help but compare. as for my style I prefer Aiman style and thought. For Ameen part, I can say that it feel like reading a good essay.

Lots of good advices and things that relate to our daily life and our common flaws.
But some part of it are pretty theoretical and to some opinion given I need to put agree to disagree sign.can't deny the effort and the quality of this book is pretty good. Consider a good self-help book.


l love the poem section. ❤❤❤

29 November 2015

Meatball with blackpepper gravy

Meh kite up resepi skali. Recipe lama dah ni. Cuma tak ltk dalam blog je.
Ni pon sbb request sbb x pandai sgt n tak tau la sesuai tak dgn selera org.. Main cedok2 dkt Google je pon. Pastu edit ikut bahan yg ada dkt umah.


Meatball:
1kg daging fresh kisar(dapat dalam-30-35 biji ikut saiz tuan gentel)
1 labu bwg n 5 ulas garlic dice halus n tumis bg layu skit
5 keping roti putih blend sampai halus then rendam dalam suku cawan susu.
2 biji telur, garam, perasa,pepper n oregano n rosemary .. Kalau ikut resepi asal dia ltk nugmeg skit.(tp kakak xde, so ganti dengan cajun spice)
Daun sup n daun bawang hiris halus
Cara: campak semua bahan dalam bekas then gaul.. Biar dia rest kjp then gentel ikut size yg sesuai.
Goreng dgn sedkt minyak campur butter..ni kakak goreng dlm grill pan sbb nk bg ada effects hangus2 skit.  Siap tu put aside.
Gravy:
2sudu butter,3 sudu besar tepung, 1 tin susu cair @ susu segar, 3 mug air rebusan daging, kalau xde ltk je cube beef stok n air kosong. Black pepper, herb, garam, guka, perasa, cendawan kalau suke. Kicap n LNP
Cara: cairkan butter n campur dengan minyak lebihan goreng meatball td, masukkan tepung dan kacau rata baru masukkan susu, air rebusan daging, kacau then masuk bhn perasa n lain2 bahan... Biar mendidih.. Kalau nk gravy cair skit boleh tambah lagi air rebusan.. Kicap n Lnp tu jgn byk2, rase dan tambah ikut cite rase. Dah puas hati rasa, masuk kan meatball.. Sampai la mendidih.. Done dan boleh hidang ikut creativity.


Kalau kakak suke pekene dgn mash potatoes,
Utk mash potatoes;
7 biji kentang, 2 ulas garlic. (rebus)
Kemudian lenyek, masukkan garam, black pepper, butter skit, n mayonnaise ikut cite rase. Done.


#lovehomecook

Sign

Things don't always work the way I want it to be,  but when it does, I need to beware of it, maybe it is the bad omen. It's like the hot burning day in the middle of the rainy season, is the sign of the storm coming.



*Peta memberitahuku semua harta karun tersimpan di jantung rahasia hal-hal yang hancur. Kau menggantung seperti sesuatu yang tak mampu aku namai -mimpi atau kenangan.



#melihatapibekerja
#bookgram
P/s: Alhamdulillah, hari cerah setelah berhari hujan dan mendung

20 November 2015

Tewas

Mudahnya kalau sakit tu boleh hilang dengan menangis, namun hakikatnya tak begitu.
Sakit itu tetap ada disitu.
Yang tinggal hanya penat dan pedih.

Tiadalah jalan singkat untuk menghilangkan rasa itu.
Pilihlah sama ada untuk merawat atau untuk terus bertahan menelan rasa itu.
Tiada siapa yang mampu merawat selain diri ini sendiri
Dan memilih untuk bertahan itu Kadang ada buruknya juga.
Namun apalah pilihan yang ada ?
Kerana diri ini tiada daya.
Memilih untuk terus bersimpati dengan diri
sebagai alasan untuk tidak menapak ke hadapan
Tidak juga mencari usaha untuk belajar dari sakit itu.

Itulah bukti aku sedang tewas.

17 November 2015

Past life

Past Life 

Everybody see 's the smiles that I give away to hide this thing I face day by day. 

They see how happy I pretend to be, will they ever see the real me? 

At night I cry my past life,

I don't let anyone know my fright. 

I'm afraid of people not accepting me for me.

I try to forget about it but it's always on my mind. 

This is one secret nobody will ever find.

I feel I'm hiding my soul, sometimes I think it's not worth anything more than coal.

In my past life, I have seen so much, 

I've been through even more. 

I feel like a stone washed up on the sandy shore. 

I lay here waiting for someone to take me away. 

It seems as though I can't decide whether to follow nor to stay. 

I go to others and I only get pushed away. 

Then I feel lonely as if I was an old bottle drifting down the bay.

I try my hardest to go on with life day by day

15 November 2015

University of Life

Minggu akhir persekolahan, cikgu-cikgu se Malaysia macam tengah dok prepare untuk perang dunia. Tunduk tahap tak angkat kepala. Jangan tanya pasal apa sebab segala mak nenek kerja ada.

Cabaran University of life.
Zaman belajar pon payah cuma time tu kite pandai nak entertain diri sendiri.
Disamping ada kawan-kawan yg sangat supportive.
Adatlah manusia, selalu sibuk membandingkan hidup mereka dengan fasa hidup yang dah berlalu. selalu nampak yang Iepas itu lagi indah sampai lupa penuhkan kehidupan harini dengan Sesuatu yang sebenarnya lebih bermakna.
Setiap fasa kehidupan akan ada cabaran dan kekangan yang tersendiri.
Bagaimana dan mengapa cabaran itu hadir adalah untuk melengkapkan corak Kehidupan Kita sendiri.

Zaman budak-budak sibuk nak dewasa cepat
Zaman belajar sibuk nak kerja cepat
dah abis belajar, dah bekerja , dah dewasa
Yang mahu hanya biar masa ini berhenti sebentar
Mencari ruang untuk bernafas.

Sometimes we just want to live our life out loud.

14 November 2015

Dear me

There are thing that I want to tell myself
So many things
I want to tell myself
that I'm Strong
I want to tell myself
that can do it
I want to tell myself
Just go if I want to go
I want to tell myself
Just remember the beautiful memories
I want to tell myself
Pain is part of growing up.
I want to tell myseIf
Believe in yourself
I want to tell myself
Don't have to pretend to be accepted
I want to tell myself
Things are beautiful the way there are
I want to tell myself
You are who you are
Don't be shaking by this cruel world .
Just stand tall
Trust that you are worth it
Allah is always there for you

I know things are easier to say than actually believe and realise it.
But believe trust and be strong

11 November 2015

November

-Mencari nilai dari dalam untuk di kongsi bersama yang lain.

7 October 2015

Laksa Penang Sardine

Kerana bunga kantan percuma, malam ini tiba-tiba lah aku jadi terlebih rajin

.Dalam rajin ada malas, laksa penang memang my fav la especially kat terengganu payah nak jumpa orang jual laksa penang pakai laksa clear nih. 

Tapi yang payah tentang masak laksa is Ikan. Aku kagum dengan orang yang rajin menyiang and perisi ikan and aku bukan orang itu. Topic asal lepas keluar cerita bunga kantan ni, kononnye nak masak Laksa Johor pasal kawan-kawan aku cakap aku n Johor celup and mesti la tau masak laksa johor. Padahalnya, makan pernah la, masak sendiri tak pernah kot. Berusaha la aku cari recipe laksa johor. Mintak dengan sedara-sedara and kawan2 orang johor. Alhamdulillah dapat la satu recipe yang best. Tapi sebab belum betul-betul ready nak berlaksa johor makaAlternative yang ada is sardin and it's working. First try and I love it. Kene dengan selera and my style plus x payah susah menyiang and perisi ikan. I like. I am sure lepas ni lagi rajin la aku buat laksa penang. hehehe

17 September 2015

7th Anniversary

Alhamdulillah.
Happy Anniversary to my beloved blog.
You know that you are my special space.
Space where I keep to myself and space where I share with people.
dear blog, only know how many post that I keep as draft and only we can read it.
only you know my deepest secret, my ugly side of myself. my afford to be better.


Happy 7th Anniversary.


you keep me company through my high and down.
tq. and I would like to dedicate this song for you.





A white ice flower that bloomed
Puts its face out in the welcoming wind
It sheds tears over the wordless and nameless past
Hiding in the cold wind
Melting down under the single ray of sunlight
That’s how you came to me once more
Only good memories, only a longing heart
On the path where you left me
I’m standing alone
Only until I can forget you, until I will be alright
I’ll swallow my tears and at the end of my wait
I will bloom once again
Love is a fiery flower that blooms and withers
In case I get wet with the rain, I close my eyes
In my youth and small heart
The dazzling memories shine
I call out to you once again
Only good memories, only a longing heart
On the path where you left me
I’m standing alone
Only until I can forget you, until I will be alright
I’ll swallow my tears and at the end of my wait
Then once again, I will
On top of the dry land
My entire body is burning
Your scent that remained on my fingers is scattering away
Your hand that is growing far apart
I can’t hold onto it so it hurts
Just until I can survive, just as much as I hated you
When the spring comes to bring you back later on
Then I will bloom on that day
p/s:
In my personal life, there are moment that make me think that I don't want to move forward and I don't even to be anywhere at the moment. Just exclude myself from the world seem like the best option that I have. but I know that the storm that come in my life just the matter to wash away my sin and to help me to grow stronger and be better. In the end there is only good memories and a longing heart that left with me. even though I'm standing here alone,I know I will be alright and I will swallow my tears and pains and once again I will be just fine. 
sometimes, we want to depend on people just too much and we don't trust our ability to heal and be strong on our own. being alone doesn't mean you are weak and fragile but you are strong enough to stand on your own. tq Allah for always be there for me and I know that I never am a good servant to You, but oh Allah you never let go of my hand. I'm alone but forever under your protection. 
that tear that he shed at the end of that song is something that is very meaningful and that is something I still not be able to it on my own. tear of overcoming my own weakness.
I'm sorry for my child-like mind and writing. 

enjoy the song and of course the meaningful lyric


10 September 2015

Bisikkan pada hati

Bisik pada hati, kamu kuat
Kuat saat yang lain menguji
Bisik pada hati, kamu percaya
Percaya tika yang lain tinggalkan
Bisik pada Hati, kamu Indah
Indah saat yang lain memandang jelek.
Bisik pada hati, usah menangis
Usah menangis kerna tiada yang peduli
Bisik pada hati usah kecewa,
Usah kecewa kerana setiap sesuatu ada hikmahnya
Bisik pada hati, tak apa sendiri.
tak apa sendiri kerna Aku hamba bertuhan
Allah tahu capacity hati itu,
Setakat mana mampu mu
Setakat mana Kuat mu
setakat mana mampu bertahan.
semua rasa itu buat hati jadi lebih kuat dan tabah
semua rasa itu buat hati jadi matang dan mengerti




p/s: catatan yang tercatat pada tahun 2014



5 September 2015

IF and What if

if
if
if
if is such a poisonous word.
if keep dragging us back to the past where it hold nothing for our future
it is "was" not "will"
as we regret something from our past, we always come out with if solution. hoping for something hopeless. after every deed we always have this doubt of "if"thinking that we might be able to do better or choosing on a better option.  still no matter how hard we give ourselves another option, nothing going to change.
"what ifs"
"what ifs"
"what ifs"
looking forward to the future, knowing that we have the power to choose,
that question keep on popping up. of the uncertainty of what might happen.
what if I fail?
what if I get hurt?
what if I there is someone better?
what if I don't like what I do later?

“Every choice in life sets us on a different path and carries its own set of “what ifs” and consequences that we could worry about, but what’s the use? Rather than plaguing our thoughts with the unknown, we should focus on and accept only what we do know – and all we know is the path we’re currently on.” 
making the decision about our future is full of uncertainty and to choose again for the past is full of regret. what define life is now, and making the move to be better at the very moment. 

what shine the most is now!!


27 August 2015

Rahsia

The thousand miles journey start with the first step.
No one can imagine the outside world until they felt the reality.
and life is short so we must choose happiness.
my happiness is through eating, music, book and of course friendship.
so we head for a short date AKA ranting session.
this my first time dining at this restaurant.
RAHSIA
 




17 August 2015

"Where Do We Draw The Line"


                                             "Where Do We Draw The Line"



On your palm an endless wonder
Lines that speak the truth without a sound
In your eyes awaits the tireless hunger
Already looks for prey to run down

So why do we keep up this charade
and how do we tell apart the time to leave from the time to wait?

What does tomorrow want from me?
What does it matter what I see?
If it can't be my design,
Tell me where do we draw the line,
Tell me where do we draw the line?

The dance of flames and shadows in the street
Make poetry nobody's ever heard
The weight of loneliness stands on your feet
The cage already there around the bird

So why don't we join the masquerade
before it all falls apart, before our love becomes insatiate?

What does tomorrow want from me?
What does it matter what I see?
If I can't choose my own design,
Tell me where do we draw the line?

What does tomorrow want from me?
What does it matter what I see?
If we all walk behind the blind,
Tell me where do we draw the line,
Tell me where do we draw the line?

Where's the cooling wind?
Where's the evergreen field?
Where's my mother's open arms?
Where's my father lion heart?
It's like the sun's gone down
Sleeps in the hallowed ground now
With the autumn's brown leaves
With the one who never grieves

So why do we keep up this charade
and how do we tell apart the time to leave from the time to wait?

What does tomorrow want from me?
What does it matter what I see?
If it can't be my design,
Tell me where do we draw the line?

Whatever tomorrow wants from me,
At least I'm here, at least I'm free.
Free to choose to see the signs.
This is my line.


3 August 2015

The struggle

Alhamdulillah,
August is here. Another month, another challenge await.
Struggling is part of our life. No matter how hard it is, it will over when the moment come.


As I face this struggle I know that I'm making some progress in my life.
The easiest way is to run away but that doesn't mean that is the solution.
Face it and brace yourself to the end and you will gain some strength.
I need to tell myself that struggling is part of my life.
I will gain something if I be able to stand till the end of this phrase of life.
At a moment I think I need to cry but I realise I gain nothing from it and I'm just showing that I'm weak.


"An arrow can only be shot by pulling backwards. When life dragging you back , it means it's going to launch you into something great.Just focus and keep aiming"


Dear life please be kind to me.
Dear God please give me strength to face this.
Dear me please stay strong.



31 July 2015

Keep Growing


We don't have to be born great to be great but work really hard to be a great person.

I'm not a great person, but I want to be someone that I'm myself satisfied with.
whatever it is that I'm facing now, might not be easy but all I need to do is to make sure that I'm happy with myself.

Overcoming each challenge that comes across our life is the oppurtunity to help us grow.


Encouragement provides us with motivation to persevere. It invites us to dream dreams of significance for our lives. And it begs us to work diligently with optimism and promise.

Even in the most hectic moment of your life, take a break, sit quietly with a cup of coffee should be enough for us to think back and keep moving forward.


29 June 2015

kembara Ramadhan

Kembara Ramadhan yang berbeza kali ini. Alhamdulillah diberi nikmat Ramadhan sampai ke hari ini. Kembara kali ini lebih kepada kembara mencari nilai diri. Mencari value dalam hati, membaiki dan menampung di kurang.

Semangat yang lahir dalam bulan ini tak layak disia-siakan, takut aku jadi hamba yang bongkak dan sombong. Alhamdulillah di murahkan rezeki untuk bersama-sama dengan kedua ibubapa. Masih menjadi anak dara yang duduk bawah ketiak mama dan abah, yet aku bangga!!

Aku tahu tak layak aku menegur sesiapa kerana amal yang masih compang-camping bah koyak rabak di sesetengah tempat. Namun aku pegang pada Ayat Allah : Sesungguhnya manusia berada dalam kerugian kecuali manusia yang beriman dan mengerjakan kebaikan serta saling nasihat-menasihati untuk kebenaran dan kesabaran.

Jiwa pendidik sentiasa mahukan kebaikan untuk anak-anak didiknya, jiwa seorang Muslim sentiasa mahukan saudaranya bersama ke Syurga. Semoga kita terus beramal dan saling membantu antara satu sama lain.

p/s:catatan pendek Inspirasi petang Ramadhan. Kita hamba bukan siapa-siapa. Tapi kita mahu jadi hamba yang disayangi dan dirahmati.

20 June 2015

Re-Catatan Penyesalan

Satu sharing yang pernah aku kongsikan dengan adik-adik usrah ku 2 tahun lepas, dan lepas terbaca balik semalam buatkan hati aku tersentap kembali. Sesungguhnya Ilmu tanpa Amal adalah sia-sia, dan aku sedar ini adalah peringatan yang Allah hadirkan untuk aku.

saat aku menulis catatan ini adalah selepas aku selesai membaca Before You Regret By Harun Yahya. dan aku masih lagi mengulang baca hingga sekarang.  Kerana aku manusia dan manusia itu sentiasa lalai dan sentiasa perlukan peringatan.

before you regret by harun Yahya. He is one of my all times favourite writer.
the ayat that I mean to share today is Surah Yunus; verse 12. 
Dan apabila seseorang manusia ditimpa kesusahan, merayulah dia kepada Kami Kami (dalam segala keadaan), sama ada dia sedang berbaring atau duduk ataupun berdiri dan manakala Kami hapuskan kesusahan itu daripadanya, dia terus membawa cara lamanya seolah-olah dia tidak pernah merayu kepada Kami memohon hapuskan sebarang kesusahan yang menimpanya (sebagaimana dia memandang eloknya bawaan itu) demikianlah diperelokkan pada pandangan orang-orang yang melampau apa yang mereka lakukan.

setiap kali ulang baca ayat ni, buat hati akak rasa sangat takut, betapa selama hari ini, kite sering kembali mengingati dan kembali pada DIA, saat kita susah, saat kita mencari sebuah jawapan dan juga saat dalam medan perjuangan yang getir. dalam erti kata lain, saat susah barulah kita merangkak kembali pada DIA.

Dalam buku ini membicarakan, manusia akan melalui 4 fasa penyesalan dalam hayatnya. 
  1. penyesalan dia dunia.
  2. penyesalan di saat kematian
  3. penyesalan pd hari pengadilan
  4. penyesalan di neraka.
kita selalu ada perbualan kecil dalam minda kita, " kalaulah aku.." kita sering berkalau kerana kita ada rasa menyesal kerana tidak berbuat lebih baik saat kita diberi peluang dan ruang. Pada satu sudut pandangan, rasa menyesal yang ALLAH hadirkan pada kita adalah tanda betapa kasihnya dia pada kita sebagai hamba.

Sebagai contoh, untuk hadir ke apa-apa temuduga atau dalam fatrah exam, kita tingkatkan level taklifat-taklifat harian kita, kerana kita yakin dengan janji ALLAH, DIA akan membantu kita saat kita kesusahan, dan dalam sedar atau tidak sedar, kita buat pelbagai janji pada DIA, untuk menjadi seorang hamba yang lebih baik, taat dan sebagainya. however, selesai saja fatrah itu, kita kembali to our old self. Sama-sama kita teliti ayat surah yunus;12 diatas. semoga kita menjadi hamba yang dilahirkan rasa menyesal didunia, dan berubah untuk menjadi lebih baik lepas itu.  supaya kita tidak menyesal di peringkat yang seterusnya. 

Tuhan kamu lebih mengetahui akan apa yang ada pada hati kamu kalaulah kamu orang-orang yang bertujuan baik mematuhi perintahNya, maka sesungguhnya Ia adalah Maha Pengampun bagi orang-orang yang bertaubat. ( al-israa':25)

to my dear sisters: before you regret, LET us use our times wisely, appreciate our sahabat, teruskan perjuangan anda kerana ALLAH dan cinta kita kepada Rasulullah. 

dari hamba ALLAH yg ingin berkongsi, ampun atas segala kekurangan.
11.47pm 21/5/2013/bandar baru bangi. Rhapsodysufi

18 June 2015

Ramadhan Kareem

Alhamdulillah,
Ramadhan is here and InsyaALLAH we will attending our second tarawih prayer tonight. The excitement and the joy of Ramadhan is arrive. We are suppose to take this chances to benefit it to the fullest like its going to be our last Ramadhan.

at this age, there are things that I regret about my life especially regarding my Ibadah. before this I never took things seriously. The different between your Ibadah in Ramadhan and the usual month is like Heaven and the Earth. May Allah Grand us the strength to work hard and do our Ibadah for the sake of Allah and Allah will reward us Jannah InsyaALLAH.

Ramadhan Kareem.
Happy reciting Quran
Happy Fasting
Happy Attending Terawih
InsyaALLAH.

5 June 2015

FOOD Hunting Mission

Alhamdulillah, my fourth day here. Fulfilling my reunion trip and food hunting. InsyaAllah my next and next and next post going to be about the food and cafe I visited. InsyaALLAH. I love this very much and even felt like not going back. But I know that it is very impossible.
Vacation is like a gateway from reality and went we need to go back to reality it's not going to be easy.

As you grow older, you learn a few things. One of them is to actually take the time you've allotted for vacation.And this is my time I'm going to review about my life so far and finding the solution to be a better person. InsyaAllah.

so far, I'm very satisfied with my vacation and I don't want to end it just yet. I know that there are some people who are getting stressful following my IG. EVERY post is about food. Just wait for my update for the suggestion.




4 June 2015

Reunion Trip

Reunion Trip sepatutnya diadakan di Terengganu, tapi atas beberapa kekangan kami tukar rancangan untuk ke KL, menjejak bumi tempat kami dididik. Mengimbau pahit manis perjuangan kami bergelar seorang pelajar. 

tema ditetapkan ialah: Kembara cari makan.

Memang makan sungguh la kali ni. Balik Terengganu mama sure tak kenal aku dah.
Terengganu--Gombak--Ampang--Kuala Selangor
Reunion kami yang terakhir pada tahun lepas sebelum kami memulakan alam berkerjaya. Alhamdulillah masih diberi peluang untuk terus bersama walaupun masing-masingada komitmen masing dan ada yang dah bertukar status. 


 Menu dari Kuala Selangor

 Ni makan sampai pengsan

 Bumi tempat kami dididik

 Group mate, tempat luahan perasaan, Teman Gila2, sahabat dunia akhirat. InsyaAllah


Klise: Zaman Uia, abis exam aku bali bercuti ke terengganu. Dah kerja di Terengganu, sibuk pulak bercuti ke Gombak ni. :)
Alhamdulillah, selesai misi bercuti dengan mereka berlima.

24 May 2015

Book Review: Why I still Carry A Guitar

A meaningful birthday present.




Actually I asked her to help me to buy this book. This book already been on my wish list for quite a while. I been asking everyone to buy it for me, but none respond to my request. As you know Terengganu is one of state where it is quite difficult to get a good book especially English book. Then I heard the news that Yusuf Islam is coming to Malaysia to promote this book. I was super excited but very sad because I can't attend the event. With her help I manage to get the book and with the official autograph too. SubhanAllah. So happy and excited to read the book. After she posted the book, she said that she wanted to give me the book as my birthday present. Speechless and too happy. 




So after two weeks of waiting, finally I received the parcel too eager to read it. However I don't get a chance to read it because of too much work and I was quite depress. Alhamdulillah, today Allah arrange me to attend a course in KL which a hate it very much, but the good side to this, I got a proper chance to read this book. Alhamdulillah after a long 7 hours in the bus, I finally finish the book.
The moment I finished the book, it left in in awe.




The Spiritual Journey of Cat Stevens to Yusuf "Why I still carry a guitar"
By: Yusuf Islam
A glimpse of Journey from a famous singer song writer to a Muslim. Facing the judgemental society that keep on misunderstand and judging people from the cover. The things I respect from this man is the way he revert to Islam is through studying Quran and without having any muslim friends and family to teach or encourage him toward Islam. It's only between He and His Maker and The Book of guidance. It is true that Hidayah is belong to Allah. He can choose anyone he want to and in anyway He prefer.
Points I got from his journey, is learning and keep on learning. At some point through this book, I feel ashamed of myself, If I have to compare between me and Him, it is nothing because I was born as a Muslim, and I don't feel the urge to study more and I just apply to the basic knowledge that I know. But this man even go through the different school of Fiqh in order to understand the questions that everyone saying that it was Haram which is Music. The conclusion he make to pick up his guitar again was not through what people said but through research and understanding of Islam.
We as a Muslim, sometimes in life, the Ibadah and the ideas we hold a solely based on the saying and what we heard from others without knowing the based to that fact.  The culture of learning in our society is very lack. In fact, if people saying bad thing or something wrong about our religion, mostly we only debate with them with emotion and not the proper faculty of knowledge.







18 May 2015

Happy Teacher Day

Rebellious who become a teacher.
10 months and 18 days.
A long journey that never failed to teach me a lesson of life.
facing all sort of challenges and difficulties really help me to grow up.
the journey that is full of happiness and sorrow.
Alhamdulillah, I'm still able to hold my head up.
Even though there are times that I'm feeling like giving up.
The reward that Allah promise for those who work really hard in this field are far worth it.
My younger brother once said to me, If Allah gives you a chance to gain reward why do you want to turn it down. Because the journey is hard, that mean there are greater reward waiting for you.
Only Allah can help me to be stronger to face what ever may come.
Sometimes there are no word I can use to describe my feeling, just tear.
Too tired to say anything.
still, I understand that what I'm facing right now are nothing woth compare to what the senior teachers have gone through. Their years of working and teaching are really admiring.
This is my third year celebrating teacher day. first time was in 2013 as a trainee teacher in Jalan 3 Bangi. I didn't get a chance to even watch the performance or even attend the assembly because all 3 of us, the trainee teachers need to handle students examination. But the students were very supportive. My second time celebrating Teacher day was in 2014 when I was a substitute teacher in Sk Duyong, that was weird because I received so many presents. My car almost full and I'm not the kind of person who usually received a gift. I was afraid to accept all those gift because I know my students come from various background.
This year, I celebrated teacher day as a junior teacher. And it was the most tiring teacher day ever. I never thought that people would trust me that much to make sure that we had a successful celebration. I didn't felt like a teacher, I felt like I'm just another students celebrating my own teachers, trying to fulfil their wishes and expectation even though I'm really not good at it. I'm lucky to have Fatihah and Kak Hajar who are really supportive and helpful. Without them I'm lost.
Thanks to both of you. Handling Pengawas, Sukaneka and Performance at the same time was tough.
But after receiving pretty good respond, everything felt worth it. With a simple thank you it felt like... wow, I don't even found a proper word to describe it. Yes, I admit that not everyone satisfied with it, but I know I already tried my best. I hope you, and you and you are okay with it. I'm just a nobody.


Happy Teacher Day everyone, I know everyone have their own struggles and challenges. We are chosen to be in this career, stand up and grow stronger. May Allah rewards all the teacher out there with a lot of patient and strange. Teachers, we are the guidance, we are the awakener.

The teacher is the one who gets the most out of the lessons, and the true teacher is the learner.

 Sedap tak?? :)

 My 3 cendikiawan, ni je yang hadir. Tq surprise cake ni..:)


 Backbone teacher day SmkBT.. Memang osem

I'm lucky to have you dear.. mau pengsan if I don't have you by my side dik oiii !

As a teacher I never ask them for any gift. Aku hanya ingin menumpang sedikit kasih dan mahukan mereka berjaya dunia akhirat. Cukuplah mereka berjaya. InsyaALLAH

15 May 2015

Everyone Definition of Happiness

Everyone have their own life, we can't decide it for them, let them choose it on their own. No matter how close you are to your friend, remember that they still need their own space. That doesn't mean that you want to walk out from their life, it just that you have to trust them enough. 


You have to understand that when people want to be alone and avoiding people doesn't mean that she hate you, she just trying to be herself. We need to be happy for ourselves and themselves.


By the way, this past week was very hectic. almost cry and my mama, abah, and maklah have started to ask me to further my study after they heard about the latest task I got from school which are, AJK for PIBG(PTA) and Ajk for Staff club. with my current workload it is pretty hard since I'm a very junior teacher... Still I have to be positive, if not I'm going to be in a dark depression. 


I have to try my best because I want to keep on doing this as part of my growing up experience. I believe that living is just a journey for us to keep learning and collecting as many lesson as possible. Very hard and now I will try to find some points to achieve my own satisfaction or else I will never be happy.
Been happy doesn't mean that I have everything I want, but enough and grateful. I wanna be happy not sad and depress.  So I take a rest, trying not to think about my problem and of course I'm lucky enough to have her as my friend.
We sit together and start pouring our heart then just sit next to each other. It is more than enough. :)
we both have nothing more to offer except our sincerity. I hope this will last forever. InsyaALLAH


"Frugality is one of the most beautiful and joyful words in the English language, and yet one that we are culturally cut off from understanding and enjoying. The consumption society has made us feel that happiness lies in having things, and has failed to teach us the happiness of not having things."
                                                                                                             Elise Boulding


sitting there and smiling and talking and in silent just mean the world to me

be happy by being simple

our long journey

our friendship


12 May 2015

Book Review: The Last song

Another story by Nicholas Spark

He is the kind of writer who write something close to everyone heart which is family.
Compare to his other book that I have read, this one took me quite a while since I started it to get me hook up with it. But when I get to the middle part of the story, I start to feel Nic Spark charm once again.
Family is everybody most important elements of life.
Whether you have it or even they are no longer with you
come what may
family is always a family.


Seventeen year-old Veronica “Ronnie” Miller’s life was turned upside-down when her parents divorced and her father moved from New York City to Wilmington, North Carolina. Three years later, she remains angry and alienated from her parents, especially her father… until her mother decides it would be in everyone’s best interest if she spent the summer in Wilmington with him. Ronnie’s father, a former concert pianist and teacher, is living a quiet life in the beach town, immersed in creating a work of art that will become the centerpiece of a local church. The tale that unfolds is an unforgettable story about love in its myriad forms – first love, the love between parents and children – that demonstrates, as only a Nicholas Sparks novel can, the many ways that deeply felt relationships can break our hearts… and heal them.


“Life, he realized, was much like a song. In the beginning there is mystery, in the end there is confirmation, but it’s in the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worthwhile.”
the special bonding between Ronnie and her dad was piano. But when she felt betrayed by her father, she quit and hate it as much as possible. 

One thing I realize when I read this novel, when we have problem, we tend to blame someone. We want to see that we are the victim. People supposed to understand us. Everyone else are at fault.

But if we take time to think and observe, we are not the only person who are in pain, people around us are also hurt and coping in their own one.

Things that I liked about Ronnie is, her ability to think and consider how far she want to get into when try to get into trouble but when she get mad, that ability to rationalise just vanish into a thin air. And blame it on everything else. 

Nic Spark really know how to hit our tears point using the father figure, I admit that the succeed that on me. Beautiful story about family, love,friendship, unconditional love and faith.

I also learn that he wrote the screenplay for the movie first before he started this novel. Well I never watch the full movie yet coz I'm not really fond to Miley Cyrus. Some said that the movie was really good. Well I'm not so sure about that.  You read and watch the movie, then you decide.


Ke hulu ke hilir ku bawak buku ni, 3 minggu baru dapat habis

bedtime story yang bahaya, sampai part best memang tak boleh berhenti

9 May 2015

help me keep this!

Each of us born with create our own legacy.
Because we are born to be special.
yes, sometimes we loss our ways
when we are trying
we stumble, we fall
still our biggest quality is to heal.
to be able to get up again.
the problems we face know is
fear.
afraid of trying.
that what I;m facing right now.
people trying to trust me with some responsibilities
that I know I can't face it right now.
I have to admit that I'm not really good at handling pressure.
Lately, I bit lost of my self confidence.
sometimes, I'm just tired for no reason.
Tears can flow without any big reasons.

I miss my old self.
the bold, the confidence, the outlaw.
I know, tonight I have disappointed their trust.
I didn't mean it.
I'm just not ready yet.
I'm asking for some space.
please give me some.
I don't mean to avoid this,
I'm just not ready for it.
I'm sorry for my wrong doing and my misbehave.

only Allah can help me to ease my bewail heart.
please try to understand me.
I don't know how to say what I'm feeling right

I want to be a better me.
just give me a chance to get on my foot again.
currently am stumbling in this wave of emotion and situation.
if you read this, please don't get angry with me.
please bear with my current condition.
InsyaAllah I will come back.

Wa wa jadaka daal lan fahada— And He found you lost and guided [you].
How many of us, despite being born Muslims, have found ourselves misguided and straying away from Islam in the past? It was Allah who gave us that hidaya and brought us back to the straight path and to Him and made us practising Muslims.InsyaALLAH
Including me!c

5 May 2015

Rasa itu.. perlu dididik.

Semua orang dilahirkan dengan rasa
dididik dengan perasaan.
Mengerti kalau kau punya rasa dan perasaan itu,
namun mengawal rasa dan perasaan itu perlu dan wajib
jangan sampai nampak enteng pada mata manusia apatah lagi pandangan tuhan
hai anak gadis,
aku juga seperti kamu,
namun belajarlah,
pacu rasa itu pada arah yang betul,
duduk bertimpuh bersebelahan
bergurau senda
bertepuk tampar
berbicara sampai lebih dari keperluan
mungkin pada kamu hanya seronok
tapi si gadis
kamu itu manis
kamu itu ada agama
sayang,
tundukkanlah pandangan mu
selimutlah hati mu
lindungi aurat mu
kerana kamu si gadis manis
adik-adikku
tuhan itu sentiasa menjaga mu
jangan sampai tingkah mu mengundang murka
si gadis,
jagalah hatimu, pandangan mu dan agama mu
tiada apa yang mampu mengundang bahagia akhirat
selain amal dan akhlak mu.
sayang ingatlah, kita punya agama
dan pasti ada batas yang perlu dipatuhi.
ingatan ini juga untuk aku.


p/s: menjadi si cikgu, sentiasa menegur buatkan aku bukan cikgu yang sporting. tak juga digemari. tapi dari itu, lebih baik dari membiarkan terus leka. aku tak mahu bersubahat dengan dosa itu. dosa ku sendiri dah tak tertanggung. kita duduk kat dunia ni nak kutip bekal je. kalau korang terus lalai, korang kutip dosa, kalau aku tak tegur aku pon berdosa. pemandangan kurang indah di hari sukan.

cabaran mendidik pada aku yang masih belajar. 

cabaran mendidik aku dan mereka jadi manusia beragama.

semoga esok lebih baik.

4 May 2015

Live and Live it Well

Now I got today to live
and I'm going to live it well.
I'm gonna try things
I gonna learn more
I gonna be there
I gonna LIVE it to the Fullest

So here I go with an open heart
scared of nothing
not afraid of losing
and now my life's start

I know you anxious for my boldness
it rough for your big heart,
that your little girl just walked out there
she's gone and she's just fly
it's time for you to see
that little girl is me
and I just ain't that little anymore.

I'm gonna try things
I gonna learn more
I gonna be there
I gonna LIVE it to the Fullest

I wanna be bold
I wanna be courage
cause I want something new to give
no rights or wrongs from now on,
mistakes are how I learn
Now I got today to live
and I gonna LIVE it to the fullest.
Live and live it well

of course, reading is the basic part living

adapt from: Rachel Faith- Start. just adding bits of my version