Mendidik dan dididik

Sudah masuk bulan ke-9 bergelar seorang pendidik. Walaupun masih baru, namun terasa sangat lama.

Memupuk keyakinan diri untuk menyatakan aku mahu itu sangat sukar kerana aku lebih kenal siapa aku.

I have to admit that everyone have their own weakness but for me it was too much.

Somethings happened two days ago and I'm totally devastated with  the situation.

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Of course I cried a lot. 

I really don't know where to pour my heart out. 

Being a new teacher with many responsibilities, it is hard and painful.

I'm glad that I have my mum who really understand me and she really knows how to cheer me up.

Alhamdulillah.

One of my weakness is that, it is hard for me to trust people but once I put my trust on them, I GIVE IT wholeheartedly. 

However once they break my trust, it's really painful and kind of difficult to trust them again.

Then I forgot that they are my students.

I'm the teacher, and I'm the one who need to educate them.

I'm Not suppose to feel this way.

Yet, I'm still a normal HUMAN BEING.

I get hurt when people try to put the blame on me and I don't know how to share the burden.

Still, I believe that Allah puts me in this situation because HE wants me to be a better me.

Allah wants me to grow up and become a better servant of His. 

InsyaAllah.

I need to learn to  move on and put aside all my personal feeling.

May Allah gives me enough strength  to face the challenges He assigns for me. 

InsyaALLAH

Dalam mendidik aku juga DIdidik.